January 22, 2004
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right now i have the clearest mind that i’ve had in a long long time. difficult to say but it’s true. i could explain myself in specifics but i don’t need to. she has no respect for me. and didn’t before. and doesn’t understand me. *shakes head* this is really a shame. but again. it’s not worth my stress. i don’t need it. fuck off. come back when you can speak to me about shit. i’m actually quite relieve i won’t have to walk down the aisle with john. that would have been a site. with all the shit you complain about to me about her. about him. you know what? you just can’t seem to compromise, work things out or get past your own nose. i wish i could be more sensitive on this issue. but the reality of it is that i’ve been sensitive to so much, and have felt guilty about so much, that it’s just not worth it. it’s not solving anything and it’s not going to solve anything. i really do love you. you are in my heart. but…you aren’t a person i want around me. at least right now. i’ll see you around. i wish you nothing but the best. maybe one day…one day it’ll be okay…you don’t give a shit about me. so just stop pretending.
i knew you’d drop me for him. i knew the moment you met him. the only time i was confused about that fact, WAS WHEN YOU SET ME UP. YOU LIED. BOTH OF YOU. i don’t need it. i’ll be over it soon.
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I think it would have been pretty cool watching you and john have to talk together…..you with you dress hiked up and both of you at a full sprint. I would have gotten a good laugh. If you ever need to talk I’m here.