February 19, 2004
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it’s strange how i feel…i don’t know how to describe it. i feel so empty but i’m so full of love and life. very strange. oh well. I’M GOING TO GOTC!!!! heee. thank you seph. and if i’m not a lazy bum and maybe i can get some people to go with me i’ll be out there sunday night! I GET OFF EARLY!!!
i’ve unblocked the two people that were blocked…there’s no point in being angry. i’m sorry that you are going thru what you are going thru steve. that sucks. i know how you feel…that’s why i blocked your ass. you should call more often. and maybe sober?
since i was 15 i have only sincerely liked three guys. two i was dumped by…the only two to ever dump me. it’s hard knowing that the three guys that i’ve liked in the past 5 years, i have no future with…it’s upsetting. well i also liked one of my friends but i’ve always known that that wasn’t going any where so i didn’t put to much forth into that…
so my life is changed. and if i feel that you are important enough to me. i’ll tell you. but otherwise you won’t know. i’m still not even really comfortable with it myself….whatever i have to go. i don’t feel like being a bummer any more…some one please save me.
