woah. i feel really uncomfortable right now. but aside from that i'm stoked. today is my second day off and i get to go to my second concert of the week! yay!!! i feel weird. i don't know how i'm supposed to react to some stuff...i mean i don't know what i expected...things are going very well for me, living situation is still up in the air...but doing well. weak things keep getting stranger as the day goes on. bleh. my nose hurts. i'm irritated, i don't wanna be in class right now but i know i really need to do the final. but i don't understand it. so i dont' wanna do it. pooooey! i would love to talk about all that's going on but there are certain people i don't want reading it. so that sucks for me! lamo-O! okay. fuck off now.

p.s. song dedicated to all the ass holes that insist on intruding in my life.

howwwwwdee. la la la. nothing to say. accept i'm sick of people. bleh. class is fun. i'm tired but i got sleep...life's good, complicated but good. bleh bleh bleh.i know i should be saying something in here that's worth while, but you know what? i don't really care to or feel like it so too bad for you. byeeee

hello all. howzit? yea...eh for me. so...yesterday....i saw daddy...he seemed well. that's good. i felt uncomfortable. *sigh* i don't know what to think about that...whatever. jeramie's not in class =( i'm really bummed because of that. makes me sad. and i can't get a hold of him so i don't know what happened or stuff. he probably just slept in...grumble. arg. whatever. and i have to take a test today, and then i have to go to work. today is not making out to be a good day...ryan's keeping me company though. he's cool...i think he likes me. dude i was eyeing from orientation. haha. whatever. i'm bored and irritated so i'm gonna go away.

lalala. hi. i am riding high on some cloud off far away in the
distance. i feel great. my life is awesome. i'm so grateful for
everything right now. so happy. i just found out that this guy that i
was eyeing at orientation was totally into me! but jeramie intercepted.
lolll. i don't mind onnnneeeeee bit. i'm so happy. he's so awesome. but
me and the other dude are cool, we talk and stuff...i think he's gotten
the hint that me and jeramie are together. it doesn't matter. i hate
runny noses. i don't wanna be in class right now. i wanna be at home,
relaxing. i'm so tired. hmmmmm....my thumb hurts. MAN I HATE WATCHING A
MOVIE THAT I'VE NEVER SEEN WITH THE DIRECTORS COMMENTARY ON!!!
*grumble* bleh. i swear i was gonna talk about something...oh yea i
remember now. hahaha. so i'm thinking about later...specifically after
i go back to work, and school. i'm gonna have so much on my plate i'm
worried about what's gonna happen to me and jeramie...especially if i
move out to federal way. i'm really worried. i know i should thinking
about it....but i can't help it. he isn't worried about it. he thinks
that it'll work out fine. i agree but it's gonna be really
tough...*worried* oh well. class is over, for me at least. post later!
<3

la la la. i'm bored and i'm supposed to be doing school work, i don't
have a class right now and i'm bored. i have a head ache. i'm going to
concerts! and i have figured a way make myself a happy girl on june
16th! yay me! i'm going to dashboard, and to primus. june looks like
its gonna be the month. nice! any one wanna join feel free! everything
is going great in my life right now. i'm so happy. i wish money wasn't
an issue though. i hate being broke. i hate worrying about that shit. i
got my mom and my dad tickets to go see prince. but her birthday is
sold out. i'm so bummed. but that's okay, i got her some kick ass
tickets for the day after. they're gonna love it. and if they don't
we're gonna have some problems because those tickets are costing me out
the ASS! but i think it'll be worth it. i'm telling them that it's
their mother's day, father's day, and both their birthday presents.
fuck i could throw in christmas while i'm at it, they're so damn
expensive. i'm gonna be pissed if something goes wrong there. my phone
is being lame with the texts right now. it's making me upset. not to
mention that jeramie's phone is being lame too. which in that case
won't matter too much if i don't have my texts working. school's good.
i'm awesome. hehe. i'm so bored i don't wanna be here. why do i have a
feeling that i got on line to talk about something here. hm....not a
clue what it is. i need music. and my own tummy back. wow there's some
hard core nerds out here. hehe. la la la. bored bored bored. i get
better tickets than what were given to me, and i get to make a prophet.
life is great! hahaha. ugh homework. boy what a way to bring me down.
lammmmeeeeee. i just wanna feel better. i'm sleepy. i'll sleep when
jeramie goes to work, and he wakes me up again. i don't mind with him.
=) i have a new wallet. it rawks. i probably shouldn't spent any money,
but fuck it! i've been dealing with a lot of shit, and getting myself a
wallet is a way of helping me feel better so i don't care. it was worth
it. i wish i could take a nap while doing home work. now that is a
cruel way to bring me down. i suppose i should get going, i have at the
most 3 hours left of study time, and knowing my attention span it'll
take more than that. later all.

what's up everyone? i'm great. everything is awesome! =) i'm so
comfortable with everything right now...well everything except my
clothes =/ but that's just gonna get worse. oy, this class is dry. but
it's relavent and stuff...man i'm gonna be stuck in this class for a
full 4 hours! but i guess it's okay, we're also watching a movie.
revolutions, not great but again relevant. i should learn how to spell
that word. i'm so happy right now. Jeramie is awesome. everyday just
gets more and more great. <3 oh ryan, i know you haven't forgotten,
i understand. don't worry about it, we're great. you just take care of
yourself. i'll see ya around. i'm doing great in school. so far all
a's! =) work is good, i just got who's gonna be my new manager! yay!!!
i want more flaming hot cheetos. =) and things should be getting much
much better at work. *grins* i have nothing to be unhappy with right
now. FIGHT CLUB! <33333333 he he. snatch! <333333 *creams*
hahaha. head ache =( oh well jeramie's waiting for me so it'll go away
soon. *grin* okay well let's talk about something else. mmmmmmmm baby
carrots! baby's been kicking like crazy! hehe. it's so fun! such a ham.
wish i could tell you about it ryan. some day. i'm bored and sleepy.
*groan* well i wanna not be on this any more so i'm going ttyl!

i can't even begin to say what i'm feeling. i just wish that one person would disappear. yep. and it looks like that's working out pretty well. don't come back. i've made a new friend at school. it's pretty cool.
*sigh* this class is boring. i'm angry. i was feeling so great this morning. i hate you. you ruin everything. i wish i never met you. never had that class with you. let you go thru whatever you were going thru without taking over my life. yesterday was great fun. good good day. today started out good. brb. back. i'm a little better. not much but a little. i just have to concentrate i guess. everything else is going okay. i suppose better than okay. i'm healthy, baby's healthy, my job is looking up, school is good, friends are solid. yea...hm...i'm annoyed. i don't know why, because i'm always some variation of that. this class is lame, i was done with it at 1:40 and now he's just bull shitting and wasting my time.

in class yet again. it's so refreshing to have access to the internet,
even though it's a mac puter oh well at least i have access. right? any
whooo. i'm bored. eating yummy food! i've been thinking a lot lately. i
hate it. i hate thinking! crap time to pa attention brb! guess what
we're doing in class. watching final fantasy. i love this school, my
homework is drawing dots and lines, coloring stuff, and class work is
watching movies! i dare you to try and tear me away. <3 i miss one
person that i don't hang out with any more. but i have a feeling that
if i tell him what exactly is going on with me he'll want to distance
himself even more, and that should make me not want to be around him
but i still do. he's fun, and we have stuff in common. well i'm gonna
watch the movie and be back in a few.
big guys wearing tight shorts should be banned =/ not great =/ you know
what else is not great, PURGERY!!! girl next to me looked online for
stuff on the movie we were watching and copied it to her report!
CHEATER! ass hole. grumble. whatever. i think i'm just irritated that
i'm still here writing about a not so great movie. he made us watch
final fantasy...with the commentary on, man those animaters can talk!
didn't hear much from the actual movie but a lot of jabber. that
might've been what bothered me. cus i've never seen it before. ugh i
don't feel good, i'm going to finish this with the quickness and go
away. LASER QUEST NIGHT!!! any one who wants to go play laser tag is
welcome, tons of fun garaunteed! www.laserquest.com yea! oh oh and area
51! okay i gtg before i get stuck here too long =/ bye bye!!!

i'm at school...in class, and i'm not supposed to be roaming
online...but i miss it! i miss it sooooooo much! grumble. so much has
gone on! and i really don't feel like going into it at school. i guess
for the most part things are on the up and up. i guess...omg i'm so
frustrated. but hey! i started school!!! haven't done anything fun yet
but it's still my first week. gtg for now! bbl!!!

i'm a mess of emotions. it's really not fun. and i don't like it at all. i don't know what to say on here and what not to say. i'm angry and sad. and i'm excited and happy. this just sucks. i really don't have any one to turn to in my life. and the one person that i've ever truly trusted doesn't want me in his life any more. and it's really really upsetting. i'm on a friends puter so i must go. ttyl!