January 23, 2004

• i’ve been thinking. and i have gathered my thoughts. i have one message. and i will never speak of this again.

  
  

  i used to have a best friend. i had thought that it would last forever. i thought we had a lot in common. i thought we understood each other. but i thought wrong. i gave myself completely, i couldn’t let myself lie to her. but she had lied to me. she lied to make herself feel better. she lied to herself. it’s not my problem any more. i used to be there for her the moment she expressed that she needed me. at a drop of a dime. she was never there for me. never there when i needed her. when i was sad. she had dropped me for the cock. not just the k-cock. there were others. i thought that the respect i had for her, was reciprocle. but it wasn’t. i made one mistake. she can’t let go. i made one mistake. she won’t let go. she won’t listen. she won’t budge. she says hurtful things without a thought of any one else’s feelings. and i won’t hold back any more. i now realize that i was nothing to her. and i feel foolish for being so good to her. i have lost a “best friend” and i can’t seem to care…never again will i trust her. never again i will be there when you start to feel down on yourself. i’m happy for you two. i wish you have nothing but the best. it was good while it lasted. our tnt bomb has ticked it’s last tock and now it’s gone. have a nice life.

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