i hate liars.

i just want to put this out there and be done with it...i'm upset with tina for not telling me this sooner, but nothing i can do about it now. after steve and i broke up he tried to hook up with her, blatently, and said that he's been thinking about it since i took him to meet her at her school. he's a fucking fly in my chardonney. i wish i never met him. i hate him. and he lied saying that i was pushing him toward something that he wasn't ready for. fuck that, liar! i just went along with him. coward. i never want to see or hear from him again. ass holes aren't worth my time.

cell block tango - "he ran into my knife, he ran into my knife ten times!"

i'm content. i'll find a time where steve and i can meet so i can have my sweater back.

my dad bought me a tv for christmas!!! <3

and i spent money i shouldn't have spent on an sp.

so now all i'm missing is one system that i'm in no hurry to get, there's like one good game on it, and the controllers are rediculous. i'll have to get the s-controllers grumble.

i'm content. but i don't wanna go to work, i don't wanna leave my new tv that i haven't gotten to play with yet. i've been too busy with cowboy bebop, i just finished the entire series, and now that i'm done with that, it's time to start picking up where i left off on my real console games. o0o maybe i'll actually finish kingdom hearts, man i have got to do something about my attention span.

hi hoe hi hoe, it's off to work i go...well not really i work at two, and it's only 11 lol. i'm just gonna play or something...iono...later.

oh yea, steve, give me a time that you are available, and let's be mature there's no need to hide behind my comments on xanga. and much less comment only, you know eprops are nice...lol. have a happy holiday steve. tell chris i said happy holidays too. later.

isn't that an awesome picture i drew! i'm proud. i looove goku. he's awesome. wanna see more? i knew you couldn't resist, www.geocities.com/theflaminghottie/guesswhat.html

okay miss jess you RAWK! but now i have another challenge, i wanna put some music on my site...that baffles me. oh and i would leave you eprops and a comment too but it's not allowed =( i heart you!!!

grrrr i wanna set up a picture in the back ground but i don't know how to do it. this is so frustrating. gr gr gr g rg r. loll. hey i put up new pictures on my site, uh, pictures that i drew, if you wanna check it out feel free. www.geocities.com/theflaminghottie

i think it's really immature that he can't call and talk to me. whatever. post on my xanga some more. haha. well i don't know about my sweater then, i don't wanna go up there, it'd just feel weird now, unless there's something going on, but i really doubt he'd invite me to anything like that...honestly, i think that being mad at him is just making me feel better...it's one of the two times i've been dumped...that bothers me, and i don't bring people home to meet my parents, and he really wanted to. that's annoying, then once i started getting into it, and going along with stuff he wanted he dumps me. wtf. whatever. i guess i just don't understand how it happens like that.

i'm getting good at the anime. yayyyy. now that i have premium again, i'll post the pictures. or! or, you can check out my site, i haven't put up any more recent pictures but i will at some point, i haven't felt like being on the internet much lately, i feel like i have more important, productive things to do...but i do enjoy it

a while back i met a guy at a concert and i thought he was really awesome, and he still is, but he's leaving, i'm so bummed. he's going to india. INDIA!!! wth! eh, well whatever makes him happy. i'm tired. and i'm finally watching cowboy bebop. it's pretty good so far! and because i'm actually watching stuff, i have to keep my hands busy, i'm crocheting, i haven't crocheted in a long time. i'm picking up where i left off on this blanket, it's crazy! a good friend of mine is gone, he left to japan today. he won't be back until around my birthday...this is gonna be weird...lol probably not but i feel like it will be. i wish i could have gone with, that'd be so fun! i'm gonna save up and go some where, either vacation or just move...i haven't decided yet, but i don't like how sheltered my life has been...i'll think about it more.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!

i heart you all!

i like my new picture, i think it captures me very well, at least right now...i'm carefree, happy, and don't give a shit, that finger is for my some one not so special right now. hahaha. well all i have to say is what you've told me "give it time"

oh retrieve it? watch how you word things.

when and where? my work, asap. thank you.

steve posted a comment on my last blog...he says that i can have my sweater back now...i don't wanna see him...i don't know what it is but i'm finally in a really comfortable place right now, i've been reverting back to when i was little, and things were simpler...and i feel like if i were to see him, talk to him, whatever, i'll be shocked back into reality, present time...i don't want that. i don't wanna hurt any more, i don't wanna worry any more, i don't wanna think about that stuff. and i haven't, i've been so content being back to where i was so long ago. with my video games, movies, some friends...i'm tired of dating, and i'm gonna not do it so much any more. not because i was hurt, not because of any other reason besides, i feel that i have more important things to do than waste time with some one...man that didn't sound right...well when i know that it feels right, i'll date, until then i'm sticking to my books, movies, vid games, etc. i feel that's the best for me now. that makes me happy, and they won't hurt me. hahaha. whatever happens, happens, and is meant to be, so i won't be missing out of anything, i won't hold myself back. i'll just live.

found my book...=D

i haven't entered anything...because there's nothing to say i suppose...um...oh yea there is one thing. I CAN'T FIND MY BOOK! my black drawing book. yea i can't find it, i almost had a break down last night. i was freaking out. and i have no idea where it could be. and on top of that my mom packed away my tapes in storage, WHEN I ASKED HER NOT TO! fuckin hate this, two things that i need right now i can't have! wtf. that's bs!!! i'm angry again now that i think about it...arg. okay well i'm gonna go now because now i'm angry.