i had an awesome awesome day at work today, i was in a great mood. and the guy that the co-worker i hate is like in love with was flirting with me!!! and then when she showed up she quizzed me down about our conversation...hahaha!!! and he told me i was just his type, and she was like, "did you tell him that you have a bf and are unavailable" and i was like...er...no...and she kinda freaked and was like, WHY! and i was like, because i don't have a bf and i actually am available. lmfaooo. hahaha. and i was like don't worry about it i think that he thinks of me like a little sister and she was like "good, you're too young for him anyway" pshhht whatever whore.

i don't know why i'm in such a good mood but i'm happy that i am. and i'm just gonna go with it. but i'm a little tired so i'm thinking of taking a nap. naps are good...just wish i had some one to cuddle with...but oh well, naps are good anyway i can get them. i'll probably up date more later.

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I WANT MY SWEATER BACK!!! ^_^ have a nice day.

i'm in an awesome mood...except that i am down to my second to last book =/ also i have to work at 6pm to close, that's just a bitch part of it. the closing. i hate it. gr. i've been working at other stores and it's aaaawwwesome! so i'm not gonna quit tully's i'm just gonna transfer because this is bullshit...so anyway, i'm bored...lalala...i am not angry about anything any more yayyyy!!! only thing that's bothering me is that i STILL DON'T HAVE MY SWEATER!!! grumble...okay i'm leaving yea!

talked to steve...we're civil. he still reads my xanga because it's "interesting" whatever. i dont mean to offend any one on here if i ever do but this is my personal journal, and i am going to say what's on my mind. and right now, i'm angry. and i want to make him understand what he put me thru. all i want is my sweater back. and i want to scream curse words at him. and i know he's gonna read this, and i don't care. FUCK OFF STEVE. ahhh that felt good. anyway, i'm feeling better. hm....i'll vent on here soon. vent about him. but for now...i'm gonna be angry, and vocal about it. oh and just an update on his behalf, he's found another chick he's interested in. good for him. whatever.

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i have so much on my mind right now, it's all about work, and a tiny tiny bit about my "love life" right now i'm not very concerned about it, i have better things to worry about...or more important things really...i feel like i'm getting back to my old self right now...but that's for now, anyone who knows me knows how my mood, and feelings can change quickly...hmmm what is there today? lolll i just thought about how certain time frames i eat and drink the same thing for a long time on a regular basis, and then i move on to the next...i don't know how to explain it but it's hilarious...and smells, i associate smells with time frames and stuff too. just like the food thing. like....sobe liz blizz and peachie rings, cherry slurpees and twizted cheetos, pistacios and pina colada slurpees at 2am, cheese fries and smirnoff ice triple black...i can't think of anything else...hmmm, hey music too...

crap i just found out where my parents are moving to...graham. that's deeeep, that's past puyallup. that suuuucks. *grumble* arg...this really complicates things for me. gr. i just got off work, and i work at 6am tomorrow...i should probably head to bed...ttyl!

i want my sweater back...

lalala i have nothing to say, i'm confused, about my friend who is really awesome...that i kinda have a crush on...i don't understand him...he probably does it on purpose lol. eh...bored...i should take a shower, i'm going to go get my nails done with one of my co-workers...yesterday i had decided that i didn't wanna work there any more, because it's bull shit. the manager plays favorites hard core...=/ it's shit. so i have to start job hunting...grumble...i don't know what to do. its just shitty. but! but i'm in a good mood this morning! except i finished my dbz books, and now i have nothing to read =/ gr...arg. okay so i don't wanna talk any more

oh I <3 JOHN CUSACK!!!

i don't feel good at all, physically i'm completely healthy, but i don't feel good...i don't want to admit what it is...because i'm prideful, and i don't like showing weakness...but right now i'm weak, very very weak. i hate admitting it...you know when i think about it i guess i get like this a lot. i just try to preoccupy myself, and when i'm busy i don't think about it...i also have a very strong will, strong mind, so i can kinda make myself believe something or something along those lines...i don't really know how to explain it. but i think i trick myself some times...which isn't good, because when i realize what's real...i get hurt. ugh i really don't like feeling like this...and it makes me think about the only guy that wants me. i mean that's not a bad thing, but...i don't know...i just need to stay busy i guess. hm...i guess i could elaborate on the only guy that wants me thing right? well i think about him because i think he's a really great person, and a wonderful bf....we just had bad timing...and i don't think that we had the right chemistry, but right now in my life, i don't know if i can believe anything my head tells me any more...but i think about what it'd be like if we didn't break up...or if we got back together...i don't know...but i'm so unsure of everything right now i couldn't get back with him no matter what...i don't wanna hurt him. although i already have a loooot. =( i'm really sorry about that...and i really don't trust myself right now, seeing as the last guy i dated...i don't know what to say about him either...he dumped me...and he told me that he's not ready for a committment, although just a few days before he was talking about making plans for shit, and all the stuff he wanted to do, BLAH BLAH BLAH. and then when he was dumping me he asked me what i was thinking and i told him that i think that all the shit he told me was bs. and he was like you REALLY think that?! well yea...you just dumped me...told me that you don't want the committment...though you weren't remotely saying that just a few days ago...whatever. this may sound cocky or something but i don't care, IF A GUY IS STUPID ENOUGH TO DUMP ME THEN HE'S WAY TOO STUPID FOR ME!!! and when he dumped me i don't think that he was totally honest with me...i am a very straight forward person, and all i ask is for everyone to be completely honest with me NO MATTER WHAT!!! i don't care if it hurts, i'd rather know straight out than to find out later or something. whatever, i just want my sweater back, and i'll never bother him again. and i'm just looking at our "relationship" as helping me grow, i started drawing again, and many other things...but i'm still angry about the break up, and i probably will for a while but whatever.

steve: my whole life is falling apart school wise
steve: my parents are gonna kick my ass
TheFlamingHottie: okay, i'll give you as much time as you want, i will wait for ya.
steve: awww..that is soo sweet
steve: thnx baby
TheFlamingHottie: it's true. i won't let it just go.
steve: let it go ?? let me go ?
TheFlamingHottie: if you need help with anything, just tell me. ask me. i'm here.
TheFlamingHottie: i don't wanna let you go yet
steve: YET!?!?!?!
TheFlamingHottie: ugh i don't wanna scare you
TheFlamingHottie: i like you
TheFlamingHottie: i thought i'm pretty obvious with that
steve: scare me how?
TheFlamingHottie: well i wouldn't wanna say that i don't ever wanna let you go because it can be misconstrued and i don't wanna scare you off by a mix up of terms
TheFlamingHottie: okay, then we are vibin now...kinda...
TheFlamingHottie: i hope you aren't willing to let me go...
steve: not w/o a fight hehe
TheFlamingHottie: good. that's what i like to hear. now get to studying, and try your hardest to see me soon. <3 ya a lot
steve: <3 ya too

"though i can't understand why you brought these storms into my life, tell me why, you destroyed every part of me. now what once a beautiful lady that you showered with your love must live with a heart that bleeds. i hope you never have to come this way again, you used to be my lover and my friend, that was then, so please don't take offense when i say what i have to say...cause if you died i wouldn't cry cause you never loved me any way.........there was no holding back from each other, both of our minds were free. whenever we spend time apart, boy it seemed like eternity. so i can't understand why you brought this pain into my life, oh tell me why, i gave you a reason to live and you used my love in vain, so go on by yourself to survive this alone....i hope you never come this way again.......how could this be, after all the love you said we shared you turn around and leave.....but i can't be worried, i gotta let you.......you used to be my best friend...you can get struck by lightning, washed away by the sea, burned in a fire, just don't bring it back to me....cause you never loved me anyway." - Mya

i was just listening to the song...and i felt some of it applied...today, i'm annoyed...because i should be taking a nap...but i can't fall asleep...i have a loooong weekend on my hands...=/ grumble. eh. well that's all for now i guess....

over all i'd say that i'm in a great mood.

"throw his behind in the ditch while my definition states as it relates to us mates, one eliminates solely contemplates, and disassociates like my new drink was v8 just as quick as i get in it i drop him in a minute like the dollars in my pocket speedy gonzalez couldn't stop the way i spin it, i'm over breaking every speed limit, this switch could be infinite, i said L to the E to the F to the T to the E to the Y because i'm so fly bring it back to the E so come and see me at the hotel motel holiday in, if your man starts acting up switch and take his friend, erase, replace, embrace, new face, come on, erase, replace, embrace, new face...SWITCH! don't take no mess from nobody, if they act up just leave them alone, don't take no mess from nobody, when you're with them you can send him home." - TLC

another song i had to mention that i was listening to. hehe. good song...i used to live by that =/ that was good and bad....okay well i'm done talking for now....i'm sure i'll update more later...i'm up for a loooong night and tomorrow...=/

happy turkey day!